A while ago, two of my friends and I started a little project to learn more about wine. A wine tasting is a perfect mindfulness experience, because it teaches you to totally focus on the moment and embrace it with all your senses.

… hear the sound of the wine pouring into the glass …
… see the gently colors of the wine, and how it moves along the wall of the glass when you carefully move it …
… smell its scent and try to detect all the hidden flavors …
… feel how the wine prickles at the tip of your tongue …
… taste the richness of aromas in every single sip …

At our first, initial meeting, we had a variety of different but classical wines, but from now on, we want to submit every evening to a special topic. The reason is that you can hardly experience the peculiarities of, say, a Pinot Blanc, when the other wines you have that evening are a Sauvignon Blanc and a Cabernet Sauvignon. You have to compare the Pinot Blanc with other Pinot Blancs from different regions or years. So the other night, we devoted our wine tasting to just one vine: the Riesling.

Riesling is one of the most important white vines worldwide and in Germany, especially. The Riesling grape is a little challenging to cultivate because it ripens rather late, but it is the basis of wonderful wines that hold a variety of fruity flavors, like peach, apple, lemon, grapefruit, and passionfruit, and it is known to express the characteristic features of the vineyard location in a unique way. Wines that are made from this grape often have a slightly yellow color and are rather rich in acids, therefore they can be stored for several years.

In Germany, one of the most famous wine-producing areas for Riesling lies along the Mosel river which is one of the biggest tributaries of the Rhine. The nature of this area lies in its slate hillsides which yield a very clean, slim, and mineral wine.

~ vineyard at the Mosel river ~

To start with a classic and because the other wines were supposed to be richer in fruitiness, the first wine of the evening was a Mosel Riesling.

It had a very mineral, slightly flowery scent which I found very appealing. When tasting it, I was surprised to note a certain bitterness at first, but then the flowery flavors came through again. There were no peculiar flavors of fruit, just the fresh and cool mineral taste. I liked this wine for its clarity and unobtrusiveness, and it was good to start with this one because Riesling wines like this that have grown on slate ground are said to be the “classic” ones.

The next wine came from the Palatinate (“Pfalz” in German), a region in the southwest of Germany that is blessed with a warm and sunny climate and thus ideal conditions for winegrowing. The grounds are rich in sand and clay, but you will not find any slate here, what results in less mineral, but very fruity and rather heavy Riesling wines.

~ in the Palatinate, good wine and hearty food are valued very highly ~

This wine contained more acid than the one before – what was surprising because usually, the mineral, less fruity wines are said to be more acidic – which showed in little bubbles that accumulated at the bottom and walls of the glass.

It had a very rich scent of apricot that was also noticeable when drinking it, and the taste was strong and remained very long. Yet, this wine was a little too much for me, and I had enough of it after a few sips. One of my friends liked it a lot, though, and it definitely was a good wine, but not so much my taste.

Finally, we had a Riesling from the Alsace, which is a very traditional French wine region with a kind climate and a variety of different soils. It is famous for very flavorful white wines.

~ wine production in Alsace ~

~ the bottle came with a very elegant label already ~

The wine itself had a yellow color (which is rather unusual for a Riesling) and an incredibly fruity scent, although it was hard to recognize a particular fruit – passionfruit maybe? At the same time, it was surprisingly low in sweetness and very spicy. My friend smelled honey, and I suggested cloves. When tasting it, all intensity was still there, but it appeared sweeter then, although it was a dry wine, and still it was less mighty then the one before.

Taken together, the first Riesling from the Mosel was definitely my personal favorite. I had never thought Riesling wines would taste so differently depending on where they come from, and now I know that, when ordering a glass of Riesling the next time, I will choose one from the Mosel river preferably.

Do you like Riesling? Which kinds of white wine do you prefer?

Not in real life, but virtually this time. As you may have noticed, I have moved to a new (my own ) domain and also changed the name of my blog. However, my blog is going on here like before – the new domain was simply mapped over my old WordPress domain, so you will automatically be directed to the new domain now while everything is still there.

~ one of my favorite pieces of happy melancholy music ~

The reason for this was that I did not want this blog to be mainly about food and eating anymore, but also about all the other things I am interested in an enjoy and would love to share: psychology, music, mindfulness, good books, photography, piano playing, healthy living in general, and of course also food and eating and my thoughts on that. Not to forget the Smileys!

So do not be afraid that you will not find any nutrition-related posts or recipes on here anymore – you will! – but you will find a lot of other things as well, and I hope you will enjoy them! I chose a title for my blog that seemed to be more appropriate to what I want this blog to be and continue to become – because all these things I want to write about on here make up my funny little life. Welcome (again)!

I am a late-night person. Right now, I am sitting here with my laptop, it is long past midnight, and I have been reading blogs during the last two hours. Even if I have been out with friends and come home rather late in the evening, I almost never get to bed immediately and instead enjoy some me-time … I simply do not feel like going to bed until I can hardly keep my eyes open. Moreover, it often happens that I feel another wave of energy and productivity coming over me late at night, and I do not at all have a problem to sit down with some nice scientific book or article to read, do some writing, or practice the piano at times when most other people are happy to have finished their regular daily business and prepare for a relaxed evening, or go to bed already. On the other hand, you cannot expect anything from me (except finding me sleeping, probably) early in the morning. To be honest, I like to sleep in. This does not mean I am lazy or sluggish, in fact, I am quite productive, everything I do is just a few hours time-displaced. In a nutshell, I am an owl.

According to chronobiology, every living being holds something like an inner body clock which has developed in all species during the course of evolution, due to living in an environment that is characterized by repeating natural cycles like night and day. In the human brain, the structure that is of central importance for the coordination of circadian rhythms is the suprachiasmatic nucleus, a tiny accumulation of neurons that is situated above the optic chiasm. It regulates countless body functions in cycles of about 24 hours by its neuronal and hormonal activities.

An interesting fact is that people are not exactly the same regarding their circadian rhythms. Rather, different people often tend to experience phases of activity and tiredness at different times during a day. There seem to be two extreme types of people in particular.

“Larks” wake up early and get tired early. Usually, they have their phases of productivity early in the morning and in the afternoon.
“Owls” like to sleep in and stay up until late at night. Their productive phases lie in the afternoon and later evening.

The majority of people hits a middle ground with only slight larkish or owlish tendencies and can adapt rather easily to earlier or later day rhythms. Still, around 30 % of all people are extreme representatives of either the lark or the owl type.

It is important to notice that biological rhythms are determined by genetical disposition and therefore cannot simply be changed by making the attempt to adapt to a certain standard. Furthermore, these biological conditions are relevant regarding working times, daily plans of medical treatment and lifestyle in general. Knowing your own disposition and living with it instead of against it can make your life easier and improve your health to a surprising extent.

Basically, there is nothing good or bad per se about being a lark or an owl, but unfortunately, society tends to put the larks into advantage because school or work usually start early in the morning, so the owls are still jetlagged then and will droop during the first hours of classes or work. High performance phases of owls usually start when the school or working day draws to a close. Moreover, sleeping in is often socially despised, and people who are owls often feel bad for it themselves. It should not be forgotten, though, that the owl is still going to be up and active for some more hours while the lark is already sleeping. So, while the early bird gets the worm, the owl gets the mouse.

If you like, you can take a little owl-or-lark-test here. And with this, my friends, I am leaving you for tonight. The little owl is going to bed now. I hope you all have a happy day (or night)! And I would love to know whether you are an owl or a lark, or something inbetween. Will you tell me?

Hi everybody! I am so sorry I have been away during the past days due to problems with my internet connection (again). This was incredibly annoying because not only I was unable to read all your lovely blogs as I use to do, but I also missed doing online research for references to serve my diploma thesis writing.

I still have no idea what went wrong actually, but after taking apart and rebooting everything several times, it miraculously started to function again. And while I was cut off and felt deprived for almost the whole week, I was so much comforted when I received a package on Tuesday. And inside was happiness!

~ happy honey made by happy bees ~

As you can see, I could not wait to try a spoonful. It is so, so good! Before I tried this, I had no idea what “creamy” actually means. This is creaminess in perfection!

~ mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ~

Thank you so much! *hops ups and down, dances happily*

Besides happiness, the honey actually stands for something else: It shows me how much blogging has enriched my life since I started around half a year ago. I have met so many lovely people through it, and maybe some of them are going to become real friends.

It has also widened my area of thoughts and behaviors and got me into experimenting more than I had ever imagined because it gives me inspiration to try new things out, come up with new things on my own, and share them with you. For example, during the past days, I have experimented with marinating (something I have never done before). My first attempts were very simple, involving only a few ingredients, but those were sufficient already to turn a plain, stringy turkey cutlet into a very tender and flavorful delicacy. Encouraged by this experience, I started elaborating the recipe, and in the end came up with this.

Spicy Orange Marinade

1/2 cup

Ingredients

1-2 oranges (or 1/2 cup orange juice)
1 tbsp soy sauce
2 cloves garlic, peeled and cut into slices
6-7 slices fresh gingerroot
1/4 tsp dried chili flakes
1 handful fresh basil leaves

Directions

Extract the juice from the oranges and mix the soy sauce into it. Then add garlic, ginger, chili, and basil leaves. Done!

This marinade goes very well with Asian dishes. So far, I used it with poultry, but I can imagine it will also be wonderful with white fish, salmon, tofu, or beef. Just put whatever you want to marinate into a bowl with the marinade so everything is covered by the liquid, and leave it in the fridge for a few hours up to overnight. Then it is ready for grilling, roasting, or pan-frying.

Have you ever tried to marinate meat or something else? How did you do it and like it?

I sit around a lot, every day. I sit in front of my laptop (writing), at my piano (playing), on the sofa with a book or a pile of articles (reading), or – with my knees tucked to my body – on a chair (eating). I also sit when working or attending a colloquium at uni, and when giving piano lessons (on a chair next to my student – who also sits – at the piano). When I do not sit around, I lay around, in the bath tub (bathing) or in my bed (sleeping). In a nutshell, I need exercise. And I spend too much time within buildings. So something has to be done about it. Starting today.

~ looking back at cute little houses on the way up to the mountain side ~

I am not a gym rat. (I have a gym membership and I go there every week – have I mentioned that I sit on the stationary bike or at some machine there? – but I am not the kind of person who hits the gym every day in order to get fit. To be honest, what I love the most about my gym is that it has a sauna. I also like that it has climate control what is very useful in hot summers and cold winters. Otherwise, I prefer fresh air.) I am also not a runner – an insight I have gotten after countless unsuccessful attempts to get into running. But I am a walker.

~ there is nothing better than comfy shoes and warm clothing in cold weather ~

I have always found that walking frees the mind and fosters creativity, and some of my best ideas when stuck with something I was working on I have gotten while walking. One of my favorite activities is simply walking around, with some lovely music on my ears – like this fabulous little piece by one of Sweden’s best Jazz combos. It is a tragedy that the pianist Esbjörn had drowned on a diving tour a few years ago. (If the embedded video does not work, you can watch it on YouTube directly.)

Moreover, walking can be great exercise and really warming it you walk energetically. The place where I live supports energetically walking a lot since it is full of steep gradients. Heidelberg lies in the valley of the Neckar river, surrounded by the Odenwald which is a low mountain range in southwestern Germany. You just need to follow one of the small roads that go up the mountain side, and after a few minutes it will turn into a narrow path that leads into the Odenwald.

To the right and left of the path, people have their gardens at the mountain side, where they grow apple and cherry trees, flowers, or vine, and many of them have little houses there. The gardens are narrow and steep, and every few steps you pass another garden entrance. Many of the gardens look a little shabby, but they are also lovely.

~ it was chilly, and there was frost up here ~

~ a lot of beauty could be discovered by the wayside ~

When you leave the gardens behind, the path that has led along the mountain side so far goes further uphill into the forest mountains.

After another steep ascent, the path leads to the regular trails that run crisscross. On these trails, you can go for miles and miles across the mountain forest.

By the way, this is one of Germany’s most beautiful half-marathon distances. It is also one of the hardest because it goes up and down all the times, and sometimes the running path is very steep for several miles. (Lucky me was just walking. I am not going to run this distance!)

Another lovely fact about the trail is that it is secure to use. I was walking around up there alone, in the late Sunday afternoon, and it was getting dark gradually. But I had not to be afraid for a single moment, because I knew nothing would happen to me. Every now and then, I meat couples, joggers, families, and other walkers. It was very peaceful. And there was not even a tiny piece of litter lying around. (I must admit that this is something I really like about Germany.)

A part of the trail is called the Philosopher’s Way, and it goes along the mountain side directly above the city. From here, you have a wonderful view at the inner city and the castle.

The Philosopher’s Way maybe is Heidelberg’s Venice Beach in some way – minus the beach. Seriously, if you can afford a villa up here, with a wide view over the city, the river, and the valley, you will easily be able to afford a stylish car as well, to get up to where your villa is.

~ some people appreciate steepness as a nice detail of their fitness regimen ~

Today I am in severe pain, but I have made the resolution to do a little walking like this every day, to balance my rather intellectual and physically sluggish every day life. I never had to care for my mind because it always worked well, but my body tends to go short and needs some more attention. And due to this little one-hour walk, it has as well started to call attention to itself, more than it usually does. (Did you know that you have muscles beneath your shin bones? I did not, but I know now. Even my arms hurt today. ) Anyway, this is the good pain.

How do you stay fit in your every day life? What is your favorite kind of exercise?

It is cold (again) outside, and after giving so many statistics tutorials during the past weeks that a lot of my own things have gone aside, I am having an array of quiet but busy days, reading for and writing on my diploma thesis, only interrupted every now and then by piano playing, some regular work, and going to the supermarket for stocking up on groceries. To keep me warm, my mom has knitted socks and fingerless gloves for me that arrived a couple of days ago, and I wear them all the time.

~ by the way, is this a yoga pose? ~

A habit of mine (I do not think it is a bad one, it is just a habit) is that when my mind is filled with other things so much – social psychological theory and lots of controversial articles at the moment, combined with permanently attempting to structure all that stuff into a meaningful and nice-to-read text – I need to reduce cognitive load in other parts of my life which also shows in that I am not overly adventurous in the kitchen currently and stick to a handful of things I eat a lot and almost exclusively these days: chicken, seafood, kabocha, apples, onions, tomatoes, brown rice, spinach, and lots and lots of tea, of course. (Fortunately, I still have a lot of non-posted recipes and countless drafts to finish gradually. )

Yesterday, however, I was in the mood to try something new, involving one of the oranges I have bought, hoping to finally get into marinating meat and fish. (I usually just throw them into a pan with vegetables, but after seeing things like this or this, I knew I would have to try marinating sooner or later, and using orange juice for that seemed appealing to me.) But given my current busy-mindedness, you can imagine I have not marinated anything yet, because marinating requires thinking in advance, and that does not go well with reducing non-work-related cognitive load. When I am reading or writing and suddenly realize that I am hungry, I do not want to wait for another hour until the marinating has finished, but eat something right now. (I am happy that my almond milk making has become such a routine meanwhile that I do not have to think so much anymore about putting almonds and water into a bowl before I go to bed. It almost happens automatically.)

So, no marinating so far, but instead I made a nice salad with an orange juice dressing, and since I wanted for something warm, given the usual chilliness of January here, I made a warm salad.

Warm Lamb’s Lettuce and Shrimp Salad with Orange-Balsamic Dressing

1 serving

Salad Ingredients

ghee, butter, or olive oil
2 cloves garlic, peeled and finely chopped
150-200 g (5-7 oz) shrimps
2 spring onions, cut into slices
2 handful lamb’s lettuce

Dressing Ingredients

1 orange
1 tbsp balsamic vinegar
1 tsp dried tarragon
salt & pepper to taste

Directions

Heat fat in a skillet and fry garlic until slightly brown, then add shrimp and spring onions and fry until done. In the end, add lamb’s lettuce and carefully mix everything. For the dressing, mix the juice of an orange, balsamic vinegar, and dried tarragon, and season with salt and pepper. Serve the salad with the dressing poured over it and enjoy.

Do you experience your kitchen creativity and adventurousness suffering when your mind is stuffed with other things? Are you an all-time-foodie or a foodie on occasion?

Given the situation that there is so much written about “food” in the blogsphere, it is a funny fact that nobody puts the question what “food” actually is. Silly to ask that? Well, not quite, because, probably to your surprise, there is no such thing as “food”. Yes, you have read that correctly: “Food” per se does not exist.

At least, is does not exist as something (or rather some thing) that holds intrinsic purport. Rather, it is a concept that has to be construed and filled it with meaning. For this reason, I will put the term into quotation marks during the course of this post.

To see how to get to this conclusion – the ontological non-existence of “food” – let us start with some very basic thoughts about what “food” actually is about, like, a minimal definition of “food” that aims towards the very essence and meaning of the word, or, put in another way, an idea about what everything that is usually called “food” has in common. An idea to begin with might be this one.

“Food” is something to eat.

Pretty obvious , but not trivial, as you can see from the following deliberation: Although all “food” is something to eat, not everything to eat is “food”. You could also “eat” (read: swallow) a piece of glass, for example. Just because you “eat” a piece of glass, this does not mean at all that it was “food”. So we need a narrower definition.

“Food” is something that, when swallowed, is in some way processed by the body.

Here things are getting difficult already, because there are substances contained in (so-called) “food” that are not processed by the body, like fibers. (It is rather usual, for example, to deny a certain vegetable the status of “food” because it contains fiber, or speak of it as half “food”, half “non-food”. People want for definitions that account for the whole thing.) Also, there are things that are processed by the body and still would not be called “food”, like paper or other things that do not simply pass the body without being altered in some way. So let us try another, yet narrower definition.

“Food” is something that, when swallowed, is processed by the body in a way that it provides or supports nourishment of the body.

With this definition, we are almost getting into the waters of teleology, because it implies that there is a certain purpose that is pursued by eating “food”. To follow this line of reasoning, I would like to introduce two German terms, since there are no actual equivalents in English. (This is why German has sometimes been called the “language of philosophy”.) These terms will hopefully provide a better understanding of the conceptual differentiation I am aiming at in the following.

The first term is Lebensmittel which could simply be translated as “food”. However, the actual concept of Lebensmittel – which becomes clear when translated literally into English – refers to “means for living”. This tells us that “food” in the sense of Lebensmittel is something that contributes to and supports living or proper functioning of the body.

The second term is Genussmittel which can be translated as “means for pleasure”. When I inserted Genussmittel into the online English-German dictionary, the translations I got were “luxury food” and “drink and tobacco”. Apparently, there is no single English word that captures the concept of Genussmittel independently from “food” (note that, in German, Genussmittel are not necessarily related to, and therefore somewhat conceptually differrent, from Lebensmittel, i.e., “food”). The second expression is merely a translation via instance (so no actual translation).

While drink (alcohol) and tobacco are usually considered as belonging to the category of Genussmittel, it is clear that they do not have anything to do with what we are actually interested in – “food” in the sense of Lebensmittel, or “means for living” – because they do not contribute to proper functioning of the body so much, and tobacco, especially, is not even “eaten” (or swallowed) usually, so it already fails to satisfy the first (minimal) definition of “food” since it is nothing to “eat”.

Back to “food”. Sticking to the original concept, we can say that the main function of “food” is nourishment for the body. This is important to realize, as well as the fact that nourishment does not necessarily have to do with pleasure by fine taste. (In the happy case, these two things go together, though.) We can conclude from this thought that all nourishing “food” (an expression that appears to be a pleonasm now) is also healthy – otherwise is would not be nourishing. So far, we can say that there might be no essential common ground of “food”, but we can give a functional definition of it because all “food” serves (at least when going with the original understanding of the concept) the same purpose, namely nourishment. But remember that this definition does not say anything about whether the same kinds of “food” provide nourishment equally or at all to different persons. (They do not.)

So far, the discussion was about “food” as seen from the level of the individual, where it mainly serves nourishing purposes. What makes the whole situation somewhat more complex is the fact that, on a superior level, there is also a social discourse about food going on, permanently defining and re-defining what is to be considered as “food”. This means that we are dealing with “food” in two different regards now: On the one hand, we have a concept that has to be defined at the level of the individual and account for individual nutritional needs – this will vary across persons because everybody has different needs, and it may also vary within persons when there are changes in nutritional needs over time. On the other hand, we have a socially construed category of what is considered “food” in general. The first depends on physiologies of individuals, the latter on culture and social norms.

This also means that, in the latter respect, the borders of the concept of “food” are not a definite as it may seem. Rather, we are dealing with a somewhat fuzzy category. During the course of time, certain items have been newly included into or dropped out of this category, and its content also depends on cultural peculiarities. For example, sugar was very hard to get until just a few decades ago and people did not eat it often, but nowadays many products that contain sugar are generally considered as “food”. Red wine and dark chocolate have found to have positive effects on health when consumed in moderate amounts and may thus be incorporated into the “food” category. Many items that are too unfamiliar or associated with disgust, like insects, are not considered “food” by many people, but certainly are by other people who are used to them.

So we find what is called “food”, in general understanding, mostly depends on availability, general affordability, economical reasoning on the side of “food” industry about what is to be produced in which amounts and sold at which costs, “food” fashions, eating ideologies, cultural traditions, and scientific evidence, and this is often detached from individual nutritional needs. The broadest definition of “food” that may be given in this (socially determined) regard could be this one.

“Food” is something you can swallow without immediately dying of it.

This sounds a little cynical indeed, but during the course of evolution there maybe has been nothing that humans have never tried to eat. Trial and error, from the very beginning.

So what comes out of this in the end? “Food” can either be understood in the terms of a socially defined, somewhat arbitrary concept that is so broad that almost everything could be labelled as “food”, so it tells us nothing. Or, “food” can be defined with regard to the specific need profile of an individual person which actually means that “food” is something different for every single being, and there is nothing like “food” in general.

Does this mean that we should stop talking, writing, or blogging about “food”, because there is nothing meaningful we could refer to? Not at all! “Food” is work in progress, the result of constant discourse and experimenting what is good for you. “Food” is an adventure, a journey on which a lot is to be discovered. Everybody has her or his share in this adventure, and everybody is responsible to contribute in a way that hopefully supports a conversion of the separate aspects under which “food” can be looked at, and helps to achieve an accordance between the levels of society and individual persons as far as “food” is concerned.

So please go on blogging about “food”! Please go on keeping the discourse running, and being a wonderful source of (culinary) inspiration! But have the courage to define for yourself what exactly “food” is. The appropriate point of reference for this definition is your individual body, with all its peculiar needs and preferences. Try things out. Do what works for you, and do not be insecure about what your body tells you. There is no outside warrant to judge if you are right or wrong, because it is a totally personal affair what to put into your body.

During the last two weeks, I have given a lot of tutorials on multivariate statistics and earned some additional money that came just in time to do something about my miserable blenderlessness. This, by the way is a funny thing: as soon as I am in the happy situation to have some leftover money, one of my vital household or kitchen appliances decides to go belly up, so there the money leaves me again … Gah.

De mortuis nihil nisi bene, but my old blender had its limits. For example, a while ago, I found this incredibly appealing recipe for homemade nut butter on a blog, and since that day, the idea of trying this out myself has haunted me. In a nutshell: using my old blender, my attempt resulted in almond crumbles. So it dawned on me that it was time for a bigger investment, because in a situation like this, when you are going to buy something that you will use every day and have certain expectations of, you are better off with not making false economies. I took a deep breath and went for really big. (Well, not Vitamix big, but maximum affordably big.) And I ordered a spaceship.

This, my friends, the blender butler. (He comes from a German company called Gastroback, in case you are interested.) Let me introduce him a little.

First of all, I find him quite handsome. He can be taken apart easily (what delights me when I think of future cleaning activities), the container is made of glass, and everything seems to be well-made. This is a real improvement, because my old blender had a plastic container, and the blade element could not be taken off which made it difficult to clean.

The blades are shaped in a way that makes the food move from the edges into the middle and be blended nicely and evenly. There are five different speed levels, extra programs for smoothies and ice crushing, a pulse blending function, and a time display.

Then it was time for a crucial test, so the first thing I made was …

Almond Butter

1 cup

Ingredients

200 g (1 1/2 cups) almonds

Directions

Put the almonds into the blender and start blending. I used a lower (chopping) speed at first. After a few seconds, you will get almond flour.

The ground almonds tend to accumulate at the walls of the container, so you have to stop blending, take off the lid, and carefully scrape off the almonds with a spoon so they fall down onto the blades. Then put the lid on again and continue blending. I used the highest speed from now on. Whenever you observe that the almonds accumulate at the walls again, stop blending, open, and scrave them off. I had to do this around two or three times. After some more blending, the almonds will start clumping together, and a few minutes of total high-speed blending time later, you will end up with this.

Wonderful, home-made almond butter! I have calculated that I save around 5 to 10 Euro per jar if I make it myself, compared to buying it at the store (depending on whether it still contains almond skins or not). This is totally worth the 10 minutes I needed for making it and cleaning up the mess. And, of course, this.